Juniper Belle Williams
Born November 14th 2013
at 7:32pm
8lbs 5oz
19 1/2 inches long
Thursday, 11-14-13
7:30am: Ryan tells me he's planning on going to the temple for a 12 o'clock session that day. Being 39 1/2 weeks pregnant I tell him he should probably bring his cell phone in with him on silent (totally not acceptable) just in case the baby decides to come that day. He isn't comfortable with that so he decides to cancel his appointment (good choice hun).
8:00am: I drop Wendy off at school, kiss her goodbye and tell her the good news that she gets to go to her friend Amelia's house after school. She squeals with excitement and skips onto the playground (she LOVES going to Amelia's house and, bless her mom's heart, she was taking Wendy every Thursday for a playdate toward the end of my big, uncomfortable pregnancy).
8:30am: I get to my prenatal appointment a little early after going straight from dropping Wendy off at school. I listen to music and put on my make up in the parking lot.
8:45am: During my appointment I learn that I'm almost 3cm dilated and 80% effaced! (At my last weeks appointment I was 2cm dilated and I'm happy I'm progressing a little). I confide in the doctor that I'm nervous I won't know when to go to the hospital if I have to count contractions because with my first two children my water broke and I didn't have any real labor until I was already admitted into the hospital. Also, I haven't even had any real/painful contractions yet, just a lot of fake contractions- braxton hicks- where my whole stomach tightened up but it didn't really hurt. Then the doctor says something profound, "A contraction is a contraction whether it hurts or not." I honestly hadn't thought of that before. He also tells me that I'm far enough along that I don't even need to count/time contractions. He tells me if they're consistent just to go to the hospital (even if I feel no pain).
9:45am: I get home from my appointment and I decide to time my painless contractions anyway, just for fun, because they happen all the time.
10 - 11am: I time my contractions while getting little things done around the house. Wendy is at school, but Ryan and Harvey are home and we're having a nice, quiet morning together. I take note of my contractions while I play with Harvey and pack overnight bags for me and my soon-to-be three children. I'm packing just to be prepared, not because I think I'll need them that day, but I start to notice that the times I'm writing down are pretty close to each other. Every 7 to 4 minutes I jot down the time and length.
11:30am: My contractions start to last a long time. I don't know when one ends and the next one begins (especially when I'm standing or walking around, so I don't stop walking around). And they're getting a little uncomfortable. I also think my water MIGHT have broken. So I call the doctor and he tells me to head over to the hospital.
12pm: Ryan and I drop Harvey off at his grandparents house and head to the hospital. We park and as we're walking in I chuckle to myself at the realization that Ryan was supposed to be walking into the temple at that exact time, where I would have no way of reaching him. I also notice how HOT and sunny it is that day in the middle of November. For some reason I always pictured myself delivering my babies in the middle of a rainy night and it doesn't feel right. (side note: this is probably because I watched the movie "Saturday's Warrior" one too many times as a kid. Another side note: none of my children were born in the middle of the night OR during a rainy thunderstorm).
1pm: Laying in the hospital bed in a backless gown, hooked up to the fetal heart rate and contraction monitors, I am told that my water did not break and that I'm only dilated to a 3 1/2. I also notice that my contractions are slowing down and getting softer the longer I'm laying still in the bed. Ryan was across the street getting himself lunch and they tell me if things keep slowing down they might send me home. At this point I REALLY don't want to get sent home because we already (pre-maturely) called Wendy and told her where we were and listened to her excited squeals. My mom also (pre-maturely) blasted it on facebook.- we were all just a little too excited. I really don't want to disappoint all those people. I call Ryan on the verge of tears and tell him it might not happen today.
1:30pm: I decide to focus on willing the pain to come. Ryan wants to watch t.v. but I tell him I can't be distracted. I need to focus on having more/harder contractions and don't tell me that's not how it works because it will work! I also keep shifting in the bed (which isn't easy when you're HUGE and hooked up to twenty belts and wires) but every time I move I have a contraction. I think I can be sneaky and just switch the side I'm laying on every 1 - 3 minutes to force a contraction and trick the nurses when they get the contraction reading into thinking I'm having them naturally, but shifting around moves all the belts and wires and I come un-hooked a couple times so they have to keep coming in and hooking me back up (they probably hated my guts). They asked me once or twice to remain still if I could.
2:00pm: Nurses come in and out, checking me and looking at the contraction print out. I progress to a 4, but no one can be sure if I'll get to stay or not. Also, Ryan tells my nurse she looks familiar and we discover he went to school with her children. (The man knows everyone, I swear). He starts to flirt (or as he calls it, "bro down") with the nurse in hopes it will increase our chances of getting to stay.
2:30pm: The contractions are getting a little stronger and more consistent and I welcome the pain. I rejoice in the pain. It literally makes me happy because it means they might not send me home.
3:00pm: I'm told that the doctor on staff says I get to stay and have this baby! I'm SO relieved, but can't shake this anxious feeling like they still might send me home. I tell Ryan he can turn the t.v. on now if he wants because I no longer have to focus on bringing contractions or tricking the nurses.We channel surf through different daytime television shows like Ellen and Law & Order and the news while my contractions get harder and painful. I don't feel like Law & Order SVU sets the happy mood I want to bring my child into so I watch a channel that is playing I Love Lucy reruns back to back. That will work.
4:00pm: I'm having to breath through my contractions that are getting worse. The ceiling has indentations in the form of giant leaves and I focus on the leaves to get through the pain (I'm pretty sure they were put there for that exact purpose). I imagine myself lying under a large tree with the giant leaves moving in a breeze and it gets me through. As soon as the next nurse steps one foot into my room I tell her I'm READY for an epidural.
4:15pm: Giant needle to the back and instant relief. Thank you modern medicine.
5:00pm: My mom shows up with some fast food for Ryan (she knows the way to his heart) and emotional support for me. She gets SO excited and her giddiness is contagious.
6:00pm: My aunt Ruth shows up with her camera (bless her heart, I love the photos she takes).
6:30pm: I'm dilated to an 8 1/2.
7:00pm: I start to get uncomfortable. The monitors around my stomach feel way too tight, giving me the feeling that I can't breath and making me a little nauseous. The numbness starts to wear off on my left side, even though I'm leaning to the left and the nurse says the side you're laying on usually is the more numb one. My right side is completely numb, I can't even move my right leg, but I have full control of my left leg and my contractions start to hurt on the left side. I plead with the nurse to give my epidural a boost but she refuses me, saying that we're just about ready to push (that's what I'm afraid of).
7:15pm: I'm hurting. I'm breathing through the contractions but I can handle it. The doctor comes in and he's amazing. He makes me feel calm. He even makes me feel modest the way he keeps me mostly covered and I like the comfort of not being so exposed. My mother-in-law walks in with perfect timing, just as I'm about to start pushing.
7:20pm: I start to push. Although I know the epidural is making it bearable, I can feel the pain. The doctor's soothing voice and calming reassurance that I'm doing a good job help me. I push for what seems like a long time. I can feel my body telling me when to push and when to rest - a sensation I've never had before since I was COMPLETELY numb for the birth of my first two children.
7:30pm: The doctor and nurses are telling me to take breaks, but I can FEEL that I need to push. I tell them so and they tell me to go ahead. It really starts to hurt, and with my eyes closed I can't help but sob in anguish.
7:32pm: First the head, and then the shoulders. The sound of the suction, then a cry and my precious little girl is placed on my chest. She is so beautiful and tiny. Along with TONS of black hair, I see Harvey's mouth and Wendy's eyes and I immediately recognize her as one of my own. I'm in love for the fourth time.
Wonderful photos by Ruthy Lou who is officially invited to the births of all my children because she does such a superb job of capturing some of the most important and beautiful moments of my life. Thank you Ruth. These pictures are priceless to me.
1 comment:
Gah! Baby stories always make me cry and the photos are just beautiful, amazing, priceless. Congrats on another beautiful baby!
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